Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Life Note - Time and the Dude's Essence


I've picked up meditation, about a month ago or so. Been doing it everyday or so since. It helps, all right? I found it started helping right away, so keep your judgmental quips to yourself unless you tried. God, this feels like coming out of the closet and I have no idea why.

Meditation is one of these things perceived as exotic and enlightened, yet it's rather straightforward. Slow your body down, focus your mind unto something and let go of everything else. It's an active process, it's not easy, but when you get there something transcendent happens. Whatever is on your mind starts scrolling down like film roll. Then you can identify these things, understand them better and store them in the appropriate part of your mind: anxiety, frustration, hope, something cool that happened today, etc.

I got one of these advertised epiphany too, but only one. To be quite frank, I had it before and didn't pursue it. It became deeper and clearer with meditation. Have you ever felt like you weren't at the heart of the moment? I'm never really there, because I worry about what's left to do. That makes me rush through what I should take more time doing. Since it dawned on me that it was a stupid way to live, I've learned to stop thinking about the future while in the middle of doing something important, like you know, writing fiction. Does that make sense or am I being enlightened?

Point is, it's been better since. I'm still doing real beginner stuff, but it's a promising start. Being grounded keep my mind active and my perception of myself as uncluttered by needless stuff as possible.  Plus, I'm not the only crime writer who's been meditating.

 

6 comments:

  1. Nothing wrong with meditating and striving to be present. It's not mystical, and it doesn't even have to be religious. It'll make you happier.

    Also, you ever sit down to write and the words just fly and everything feels right? You know why that is? Because you're present. Because you're here now. Your mind isn't attached, it's not worrying, it's not dwelling on what was, or what might have been, or what could be. It just is.

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  2. You don't even have to focus your mind on anything - just be aware of the mind, whatever it's doing.

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  3. @Chad Yes. I know what you mean. It's when nothing in the world is cooler than what's going on the page.

    @Barry Thanks for the tip, sir. I find focusing helps distancing myself from the cluttering stuff, but I'll try that. I have to say I didn't try not focusing yet.

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  4. I'd say that thinking you have to focus, or get distance from "the cluttering stuff," is another way to tyrannize yourself. What if instead you're just aware of the clutter? If it's distant, that's how it is. If it's close, that's how it is.

    Does this make sense?

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  5. I've been meditating on and off for two years. Admittedly, I avoided trying it for a long time because I was afraid I might become so positive my writing would change. Of course that's a laugh. My writing is darker than ever. Maybe by meditating I'm just getting better at keeping the negativity and darkness on the page where it belongs.

    If it's healthy and it makes you happy, I say do it.

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  6. @Barry: I understand what you mean but I'm not ready to accept that putting distance between the things that tyranized me is tyranny. But I understand it's something I should long for. Thanks for the tip again.

    @Dyer: Thanks for dropping in, man. I don't think I'll ever become a positive person, but you know if 2012 taught me something is that I need to have better control of the clouds under the lid.

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